I am not perfect...who says so?!?!?!?

Well, what a week! (is that an understatement or what?)

We are all perfect in Gods eyes; is that not what religion teaches us? Aren’t we supposed to overlook each other’s shortcomings and learn to love others souls not what they look like or their deformities?
I like to think that I see people for who they are not what they look like! I mean, my teen/twenties friend Katrina always said that I "saw people for the inside - not the outside"...DID SHE LIE?
After yesterday I made the realization that I judge people by how they treat me....ME! I really have no scruples about what someone looks like just how kind they are to me...no matter whom they REALLY are - that does not mean one IOTA! Is that really me?!?!??!
I made a huge mistake. I kept tally. Do you know what that means? I kept track of the ugly or misguided things that a loved one did over the years; neglecting anything good that they may have done or shown in actions.
THEN, I made the mistake of pressing the "SEND" key. (Word to the wise; ALWAYS just keep whatever you write as a "draft" until you sleep on it')

On top of that....AM I SELFISH?!?!?!?!?

YES...yes, apparently I am.

I am the youngest of three sisters. The "spoiled one". I will not lie. I am completely spoiled. Somehow I have always felt entitled?
What the heck?!?!?
Yep, figured that one out this week also. Not that I didn't have any clues to that fact before but, I never wanted to acknowledge it to myself or anyone else. (Well, mainly myself.)I have lived most of my life at the bottom of one pickle jar or another - and, it has always been my sister Julie's full time job to fish me out of the jar! Apparently, I am branching out to friends and OTHER family members now!

But, financially this will mean that I have not just one dim light at the end of the tunnel but one VERY BRIGHT LIGHT there! FINALLY!
You see; my sense of entitlement has gotten me thousands of dollars in debt over the years. My credit sucks (my saying is if someone ever stole my identity they would return it QUICK!) I needed money to pay bills. So, I did the white trash thing and I went to every "payday" loan place around- even hitting up a signature loan place! Oh they were the worst! Out of every $200.00 payment I made (every two weeks) only about $0.95 went to my principal! Can we all say RIP OFF? Or maybe stamp "sucker" on my forehead?

You see; I am smart. TOO smart. I have always caught onto things almost- too quickly. I never really accepted, or acknowledged that fact until recently. And, stubborn?!?!?!?! Heck, if you Google the word MY PICTURE pops up! I would walk over broken glass in bare feet before ever admitting that I am sincerely, wrong. Well, until recently, now I see how wrong I have been and how my sense of entitlement has been a destructive force in MY life and many others.

My sister Julie (that I live with) has told me time and time again that "Don't you see, what you do with your finances affects me!" Somehow, ignorance IS bliss.
If I don't look at it...it's not there - RIGHT?
Well, if I just pay the bill and DON'T look at the receipt; They aren't charging me a zillion dollars in interest; eh?
Let's just say that I keep doing these things, and they keep coming back to bite me in the butt.
Time to:
#1. Take off the rose colored glasses.
#2. STOP IT...learn from your mistakes!
All of the above = LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES, LEARN HUMILITY, ACCEPT YOURSELF AND OTHERS INPERFECTIONS, and realize that NOBODY'S ENTITLED!

Okay, let’s go back to the main subject...I'm not perfect?
No, none of us are perfect. Some may think that they are, but they aren't.
We all just try.